Thursday, July 31, 2008

Giving up on dreams

Well its done - I will officially stop talking about Moving to another state. He (My spouse)called me a Gypsy - did you know that Ive moved around over 28 Times in my lifetime! That all stopped about 6 years ago. This is the longest I have ever stayed in one place - Not counting when I was a kid - the longest was on Bedford - we moved there when I was 3 or 4 and I moved out when I was 15 - but who remembers anything before age 10 lol.

Am I ready for a new adventure? Yes - at this point I dont care where - just somewhere else - although Florida is calling to me. And I dont want to move further upstate cause I hate snow. But he does not want to leave. So I am stuck and my dreams have gone out the window.
Not only that my son is also giving me a hard time - he starts 11th grade in September and he wants to graduate with his friends, which means a delay of about 2 years. So what do I do, wait? Then if I wait, my daughter will give me a hard time as she will be starting 2nd grade by then.

So once again I push my wishes aside for the benefit of others.

Friday, July 25, 2008


Well I have been slowing looking at getting a job, seriously this time, I mailed my resume to one company already... many people think that I dont wanna get a job so why bother and parts of me does not... think about... Ive been working from home for a few years and I know I can just 'have a party' or write some kind of transaction and be paid a heck of a lot more then I could sitting 40 hours at a job. So why go get a job? Why give half my check for daycare? But working from home is harder then I thought.. I cant find people sitting in my living room and it also keeps me from getting out and meeting people. I dunno - Linda starts kindergarten in September so why not?

So how funny is it that today I find that my old job - where I was before Linda was born - posts a job - well two positions opening. I called and who knows - I will touch base with them again on Wednesday.. do I want to work there again where they made me miserable? Well the ones that made is miserable for me left the company and not only that I was pregnant and

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Writing a book

Have you ever thought that you could write a book about your life and family and make millions?

We joke about it all the time, but I think it would be a great story... no worries, names will be changed to protect you.. lol

Sunday, July 20, 2008

What a week!

So I spent the week in Brooklyn.. with my mother and her husband, who used to be my uncle... but thats another story....

We went to the city, Manhattan, which I have not really been too since I stopped working there in 2002. I miss it sometimes, the hustle and bustle of the city... all the stores so close to each other, the lights and excitement. But I wish I had a sign that said 'I am not a tourist!' lol - We went to the MnM store, Hershey, World of Nintendo, Bubba Gump Shrimp! Even checked out the supermarkets there.. lol... We also went to the Hall of Science in Queens, which was nice, even though the place was filled with kids from camp but they were gone by 2 so it was not too bad. Spending time with my mom had me realize that I dont spend enough time with her. Who knows what the future brings huh...

Monday, July 14, 2008

Should I stay or go

Well its 1pm and I am already packed and ready to go.... do I wanna, not really but I will cause I like to keep my word... not sure how long I will stay but we are supposed to head to museums and stuff... guess Ill see...

I think I need some time away - being a stay at home mother is hard.. people think its easy but I am bored half the time and get tired of doing laundry, cooking and cleaning - I actually hate cooking, maybe cause my kitchen lacks counter space, I dunno but Id rather order out anytime.. lol it may be fun letting my mom cook for me the next few days.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Well this is a first

Figured since the whole planet blogs that Id start! LOL - inspiration - my cousins Tanya from upstate NY! We will see how long I keep this up... lol