Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Why Blog?

Why do people blog in the first place?

To tell other people the things that are going on in their lives?
To Complain?
To Vent?
To just talk and see who is listening?

I dunno

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Hawaii Vacation

Hawaii may be a once in a lifetime trip but I am determined to return. To see the Whales!

Our flight from Newark to Honolulu took almost 11 hours!

We spent a week on Oahu - Waikiki beach to be exact. The resort was not exactly on the beach but about a block off. We stayed at the Imperial Waikiki in a one bedroom, two bath, resort room. We exchanged into Interval World to get a week at this resort, so technically we didn't pay for it.. lol..

Hawaii has a daily tax rate regardless if its a hotel or timeshare. So depending on the size of your room daily tax can be $2 - $10 per day! This is above the regular tax you would pay in a resort.

While on Oahu we hiked up Diamond Head - it took about an hour and a half round trip. And it was treacherous! Rocky, slippery, lots of steps, a dark tunnel and then we had to duck to thru a small hole to get to the top! But it was beautiful! We visited the North Shore - not to far where Lost is filmed. The Dole Plant is also out there, fresh pineapples are so good! Snorkeled, sort of, in Hanama Bay. I was to much of a dork to wear the mask and I could not coordinate the breathing part correctly. Visited Germaine's Luau! A first for me! Amazing how those women shake those hips. We also took a tour around the island and got to see where the filmed a lot of the scenes from Pearl Harbor and Jurassic Park.

We also visited the beach a few times. Watching the sun set seemed to be a nightly event for us as well.

We then traveled to the island of Maui - it was about a 30 minute flight! I think Im getting better with flying, not freaking out too much..lol

While on Maui we spent a lot of time on the beach. Drove the road to Hana, which is about 56 miles long, with over 600 hair pin turns and over 50 single lane bridges. Man it was scary. We found a black sand beach, a red sand beach, a lava tube and a bunch of waterfalls. We traveled all the way out there to see the seven sacred pool but didnt not get to them it seamed the road was closed. Boohoo. We drove up to Haleakala crater. We stood above the clouds! The temperature changed on the way up down to 55 but once we drove higher then the clouds it got hotter... so strange. We saw Molokini crater, took a boat to see the coral reef, saw some amazing animals in the water and relaxed.

It seems like we did more but I guess we really didnt.

Our flight back was horrible. We got on the plane, the plane backed out of the terminal and stopped. Seems that they engine could not be turned on or something. After 4 hours the cancelled the flight, put us in a hotel over night, fed us breakfast, and took us back to the airport for the next plane. Thank GOD we got home, I was never so nervous in my life!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Secrets in my life.

So Ive been sitting on them for a years. Do you keep them or tell?

There have been times in my life that I just blurt out everything that has ever happened to me and boyfriends have stayed but they have treated me as if I were fragile. The relationships never lasted. So now this time around I have decided to not tell. Keep things hidden away forever, 8 years so far. So now I am not treated as if I were fragile but treated as a bitch.

Have you had things happen to you in the past that kinda of creates your future. Like - lend someone money and never get paid back. So I never lend money to anyone because of that experience. It sounds simple, but there were events in my life that were tragic and horrifying. Im not too sure about forgive and forget in all situations. And maybe your past should not create your future.

Ive had such a life that some have told me its amazing I got through it all intact. I could have been on welfare with a dozen kids. I could have agreed that my life was over at 18 and stayed in a horrible marriage where I was treated like a prisoner. I could have sat back while he treat me and my kids like crap. They would have been hoodlums by now. Arrested with kids themselves. I could have been the victim for the rest of my life living on the system. Like some people I know, with the 'world owes me' attitude.

Ive been emotionally crushed. Had my dreams stolen right from under me. My innocence robbed. Matured faster then most young adults. Damaged, neglected, used, abused, thrown away! And yes I still cry myself to sleep. Sometimes listening to songs help me get through the day.

Details dont matter.

What matters is that I wake up every day and I thank God I am alive. Alive to see another day, to see my kids grow, to live with a great man, to be loved.

He will never know the turmoil I go though daily. The issues I face, the memories that haunt me. The fear that I have, pain I feel.

Is it better this way? Whats the alternative?

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Gossip, Rumers and Lies... and everything in between

No matter how old you get, no matter what changes happen in your life, no matter where you are... these nasty things seem to always pop up.

I am not one to dive into it, but its at the point where its just ridiculous.

People need to move on with their lives, let go and start somewhere else.. the future isnt written in stone.. it can be changed, but only if you want it changed.

Monday, February 23, 2009


So our trip to Hawaii is almost completely planned. When we first looked into going we found airfare for $441 and two weeks later it jumped to almost $800! A few weeks ago they jumped down again to $585 - we booked them cause they are direct flights from Newark to Oahu - 10 hours on a plane.

We have our hotels/resorts booked.... we are staying 1 week on Oahu and 1 week on Maui....

I cant wait!


Someone told me that no matter what your spouse comes first. They will be there for everything, thru thick and thin and most of all - when your kids leave - when they become adults and find their own way - the only one there is your spouse - make sure your relationship is priority number one!